Meditating with the Sun


The colour of spring
Of daffodils and sun
Knitting is my meditation
In the company of peppermint tea
Feeling the love of the sun on my face

Yarn: Feather Brush   DK Tequila Sunrise

Pattern:  Woodland Sprite Bonnet – Fawn Sisk   (Available Ravelry )

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Sneaking in

Over two years since I have posted…oh my how life changes.

The babies have grown…babies no more…sassy kids who answer their mumma back and keep her in line.

My beautiful big girl…the one so full of life and laughs is no longer living at home…is no longer even living in the same country as us… heart reaches out over the miles and I often think that she was the glue that held us all together.

My happy family is broken…..broken dreams…..broken love…..limping along until the stars align to make that final break.  Just so sad that where there was once an US there is now only a ME and YOU.

It is bitter sweet reading back over snippets of our my life.

Through it all I still manage to craft a little…..knitting being my meditation….soothing my soul in the insomniac hours before I force myself to sleep a few hours before the kids wake up.

Contemplating what to do with this blog……resurrect it like the phoenix rising from the ashes or leave it tucked away in the recess of my memories….a reminder of happier days when the sun seemed to shine and there were adventures just around the corner.



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Crafting for January was:

Lots of wee hats that were sent off to the local SCBU (Special care Baby Unit) for those wee babies that needed some extra special care the first few days and weeks in this world

There were more ..a whole set of red ones as well……..all knitted with 4ply yarn and knitted in the round on circular needles.

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New Year Challenge

I didn’t make any resolutions at the beginning of the year. Actually the New year passed with barely a flick of the eye lid as I battled with some dragons that needed slaying. From the depths of despair came an idea. An idea to spend the year dispensing koha ( a New Zealand Maori word meaning gift or donation) to people, an idea with the selfish beginnings of pulling myself up and out of the dragon’s lair by putting a smile on ‘ face or helping in some small way to lighten another’s’ load. I would love for all the koha to be anonymous but at times it just doesn’t work out that way, though sometimes the intended recipient doesn’t even realise they are a part of my game and are  being koha’d.

For those of you who are in the midst of dragon slaying (or not as the case may be) and are thinking that this may be a good game for you I’ll give you a brief outline on how it has panned out for me for the month of January.

I have given myself a few rules. You may use my rules or make up a new set of rules for yourself.


  • I must give the recipient a smile
  • I must not expect anything in return and give gladly with love and from my heart
  • I will not support cancer research
  • I aim to koha at least once a week
  • Koha does not have to be donation of money
  • Anything goes (well…most within reason)
  • You do not have to be there in person to actually see the smile
  • I reserve the right to change or add or ignore the rules as it suits me

I have had a clear intention and have not had to look yet for a recipient. They have unknowingly come to me or have been put in my path.

Now for those who may be wondering how this pans out in real life day-to-day living here are a few examples :

It may be as simple as smiling at and greeting a random stranger as you walk along the street,  gifting a few dollars where there is a need, sharing a little of what you have, using up a little of your yarn stash to knit hats for babies that are born too early or sick, taking a few tablespoons of fresh ground coffee when you visit with friends, let your friends do the talking and you be a listening ear for them, give away clothing and possessions that you no longer need, play a board game with your kids, buy a ticket in a raffle or charity auction…… you get the picture.

A funny thing about this game is that once you start to play it those dragons seem to get  slayed real fast, leaving you with even more time to play the game. An even funnier thing is that after playing the game for a wee while you forget you are playing the game  and automatically  koha smiles without even realising it.

Game Rating: 10/10

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Summer was a little late starting this year but I was blessed with hot days, warm balmy evenings, mosquitoes and glorious sunsets when I headed north for a few days. A few days that turned into a few more days as the longer I stayed the less I wanted to return to city life.

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Doesn’t time fly

Seems that I misplaced my sew-mojo (and the knit-mojo) after my last crafty post in August. Lost in the chaos and clutter of my house (and no…I won’t be sharing any pics…it’s just too embarrassing)

A new year and a new start.

Actually I started in December when I joined in with Sew Funky’s Christmas decoration swap. We were put into groups and had to make 6 (I think it was six…December seems such a long time past now that we are into a new year) decorations the same and send them to the others from the group. I settled on Christmas baubles coz I had been meaning to make me a  set so thought others might like them too (and I still haven’t made myself a set as I kept gifting them away as fast as I made them). I didn’t take a photo due to a missing camera (which has finally turned up) and a missing notebook (that is still missing and I’m suspecting that it has been taken from our house). Never mind…thanks to  ‘D’  from Sew Funky  there is a photo of it on her blog here.  I have ‘borrowed’ her photo but I do urge you all to go take a look…and drool over the decorations that some of the other crafters have made.

I was in such a dilemma about what would match others Christmas colour themes and would they be good enough and …and…and…. Finally I settled on a sparkly silver yarn thinking that silver was a pretty ‘neutral’  and safe colour theme for Christmas. One thing that I totally didn’t take into consideration was the fragility of the bauble (which is a very thin easily breakable glass) and how I was going to post these so that they arrive in one piece.

The weeks leading up to Christmas became really hectic and I omitted to say thanks to the other crafters in the group for their beautiful decorations. With the misplacement of my camera there were no photos taken of the gorgeous treasures that I received and now they are safely packed away in the ceiling until another December rolls around. If you are reading this there is a BIG THANK YOU to those who added your love to our tree and an even BIGGER THANK YOU to D for all your time and effort in organising this.

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Life got busy

Sorry to those who follow my midnight musings.

Life got busy but am back on board now

A few more weeks of writing to go for my study and then on with the next stage of the journey.

So much to catch up on…

A huge thank you to tartan kiwi for the surprise that was in my box a few weeks ago. A gorgeous bag which I am yet to take photos of  from when I signed up for pass it forward.

I missed out on participating in blogtoberfest this year… I might have to have my own decemberfest? januaryfest?…

On my sojourn I met a very wise aboriginal elder.  Uncle Max Dulumunmun Harrison, a Yuin elder from Narooma on the South East Coast of Australia.
I was privileged to spend two days in his company, listening to the sharing of his teachings and wisdom. truly inspirational … I left the weekend with a new heart… a reconnection with the land and a healing that encompassed the mental, physical and spiritual elements of my being.   I sincerely hope we cross paths again … a visit to Mt Gulaga … his people’s sacred mountain has been added to my bucket list … into the dreamtime.

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These past few days I have been thinking about family ties.

There are many different branches to a family. Some we see everyday like my immediate family, the children I have birthed. We live together, a hotch potch of personalities, held together by a familiarity of love, laughter  and interdependence.

 Then there is the immediate family that no longer live at home and their children, some of whom we see most days…who come and go through our home … slipping into our daily life like they actually live here. The stepson and his wife who live on the other side of the world but we stay in touch  thanks to the modern digital world of Skype. The grandson who for now is lost to us. A grandson  (the stepson’s son) who was born of parents too young and despite our best efforts to stay in touch with him  his mother chose to cut off all contact with us when she remarried. Phone calls to him went unanswered and Birthday and Christmas gifts were never acknowledged. As he got older we sent cheques that were never cashed. I think of him at this time of the year as another birthday approaches and we are unable to send our love and let him know that he is a much loved member of our family.

I think of the family that I grew up with. My sister, my parents, my grandparents, aunts and uncles..all important for learning those first lessons in life and for a sense of identity.. knowing where you have come from and enabling you to move forward in the world with a clearer vision to where you are heading to (or not heading to as the case may be).  A family that has become smaller (through death)  as the years have passed….leaving little more than a fragile shell to hold onto as the past is left behind. 

Then there is the kinship of community. The friends that I have made along the way…friends that are closer than the sister who has chosen a different path in life. Groups of like-minded people that become friends and family, who are linked  together through shared interests and belief systems.  I have been blessed to be on a waka journey, a spiritual awakening,  travelling forward with friends and much  Aroha (love), helping to forge a path for others who are following behind.

Family ties and kinship doesn’t just cover those bound together by blood …it stretches far and wide to also encompass all who live under the sun.

One year my dad gave my mum a small picture for an aniversary gift..a picture that contained a quote….I have no idea what happened to the picture but I still remember the quote.

I found one version of it here.

I Shall Pass Throught This World But Once…

“I shall pass through this world but once. Any good, therefore, that I can do or any kindness I can show to any fellow human being, let me do it now. Let me not defer or neglect it for I shall not pass this way again.”

 It is credited to a French Quaker missionary from the 1800’s named Stephen Grellet .

This week I have been thinking of how powerful it is to send out love to your family, to your friends, to the greater community. How powerful it is to love and forgive and to be of service to another, to give of yourself. Even the gift of a smile can make a huge difference to  a strangers day.

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Talk Like a Pirate

A week ago it was ‘talk like a pirate’ day. (Yes I know…I’m a bit behind the times with my postings) The kids had a fun morning rummaging through the house to come up with costumes so that they could go down to the local book/toy store (check them out here if you are on Facebook) and claim a ‘treasure’.

For those of you who aren’t on FB I have ‘borrowed’ a few pictures from StoryTime to share.

Love this last picture of the pirates ‘lost’ amongst the books. There’s definitely a treasure or two to be found in there. 

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September is slipping by

at an alarming rate and my blogging is sadly not keeping pace. Once again I have been without a camera to record our mundane everyday life and a blog without photos is just boring in my opinion.

Once the bills are paid off a new camera is top of the list. I thought I’d have one by now but funny thing about the bills…you just get one paid off and there is another sitting in the letter box.

Today was ‘Talk Like a Pirate Day’ and our favourite local book store StoryTime  had a wee treasure for those who dressed up and went in to talk to them like  a pirate. The kids were so excited and quickly got into the swing of it. A rummage through the dress up box and drawers, a  pilfering of  mums fabrics to hack up for head scarves and eye patches and a ransacking of the circus gears for some juggling swords resulted in three awesome pirates.

Last night was the final night of FOLA (Festival of Light and Art) and what a night. The quarry was packed to over flowing for Op Shop. Luckily we had prepaid our tickets the week before because they were turning people away at the gate.

Picture was taken by Megan Bowers of Megan Bowers Photography. If you are on Facebook you can check out  more of her photos here . We met Megan on the weekend when I booked a photo shoot to help her raise funds to get to  the best of emerging artists competition in Nelson. The kids had so much fun that we went back on Sunday for another session.  I haven’t bothered with professional photos for years (17 to be exact after some wasted $$ spent on Pixie photos that ended up looking posed and ‘flat’, devoid of any character. ) Went to look at the photos this morning and WOW!!!!!  I will definitely be booking in with her if she runs another special deal. Will be sharing a few pics when they arrive.

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